Some of the rock sound for my e book "scare crow and the rose" on the sound track with https://urbanether.bandcamp.com/…/lucky-lonely-alyson-ertell

amazing  working with Murray and aly

Return to the Mecca -Sub chapter "power"

Snippet from book 2 for the queens

“Listen to me Cloud  ….And I'm comfortable in my own skin. I'm actually peaceful and happy.. .. You can be to.

Not because stuff is going good.... it's not really it’s pretty bad, but because I know that God can fix everything that is not good.

I know that He's fixing it and more than that He is fixing me. I look at my flaws and I'm not hiding them now because I know that they're on their way out.

That one thing at a time, He is totally fixing me.

It's just... well amazing. It's incredible to know that you are flawlessness waiting to happen.

I am perfect - I'm just achieving it. It's great to know whose I am and thus, who I am. It's great to know that the lies that the enemy has trapped me with for so long are actually lies. I'm actually healthy. I'm actually beautiful. I'm actually a quiet and gentle spirit. I'm actually wise. I'm actually a great mother to be.

I'm actually anointed for my ministry whatever it may be. I actually have a purpose. I'm actually attractive. I'm actually smart. I'm actually talented. I actually have the Spirit of God living in me. I'm actually a resting place for many and know I am not afraid to take refuge in others. I'm actually a wise counsellor

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I'm actually a loving daughter. I'm actually appreciated. I'm actually appreciative. I'm actually a woman of faith. I'm actually fearfully and wonderfully made. I am beautiful

Everything I just said I never believed. I was in bondage to lies from the enemy. I believed him. But it was all lies. All of it. Because, actually, I am who and what God says I am - because He cannot lie.

Freedom Storm the greatest freedom is that we are bound to make a choice my love.

Beep beep single release

The struggle is real

I am racing toward finishing the next book series ASap, because men are too proud to admit it but we are dying literally. Cold brutal truth %50-60% of the men I grow up with are dead the older ones and younger ones close friends uncles cousins nephews fathers, trying to medicate secret pain. Suicide diseases alcohol or drug related death battling secret pain and depression. I asked a very simple question to group men and the responses scared the shit out of me… what did I ask? “Do you feel you will ever be happy genuinely happy” and because it was all men they told the truth most of them said no and in the silent ones it was in the eye’s. I am not the second coming as a man I have my struggles but I am happy I am connected to something and at the expense of being called soft I am hoping to drop some crumbs of wisdom in my book that might help you maximize life and relationship. I wrote scarecrow and the rose to women to kill the false sense body image and beauty, and secondly because many women grew up without fathers and they did get a very simple thing called non sexual male affirmation and compromise standards and your body just to get whiff of what man thinks and masculine affirmation losing a daughter and gaining another really woke me up. The 3^rd reason I wrote to women in the book was to lift insecurities imposed on you by society and sadly enough by your parents as a child  very simple theme surface and  depth do as I say not as I do  lets pause right there technically the mask we all where. Okay I am writing letters to my unborn as a story dropping crumbs of wisdom and some of my own personal struggles with this man hood thing because I am sick and tired of watching men die waist life, and time battling depression and acting crazy dealing with secret pain. Say whatever you want but as early I3 that’s first suicide of someone my age. Then this year 5 men I know woke up in the morning decided they would never be happy gave up on life and committed suicide secret pain. So be masculine silent and die or get help live and maximise life and happiness, money won’t help you sex won’t cure alcohol and drugs make it worse. I am not saying this to get book sales I left music to write because and hear me clearly men we dying. I don’t have a insist solution to complicated problem but I know if I can be happy maybe and really enjoy relationships and work you can.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hc45-ptHMxo