You owe me hypothetically....

You owe me ….Hypothetically … hypothetical

Okay … So… you slaved away all this time and stole something from me “our time”, I thought we loved each other  but the worlds get what’s mine ... So now that you have the perfect body that you wanted, you got the car … Paid for the house you have the money, but in the depth of night your heart hurts because in truth your too proud you won't call me ... your lonely … are you happy sweetness just get at me ?

And when that happens… will you drop your pride remember the laughter we shared the giggles the cuddles the hugs the soft side of the thug , the shape of my body wrapped an around yours  like sunlight on leaves , the sound of my heart beat when your heads on my chest  and that annoying things I do that you miss when I am away that makes you wrap yourself in my shirt with my scent and pick and the phone and be like King  can come over  hold me …

So you have a drink in your hand but you know the highs temporary, the bed waiting at home is cold and the smile on your so called friends are fake, and for a moment you smile as you think back to the place of how we  shared heart felt dirty jokes and verbal kush the getting to know me through poerty,  deep poetry and your neck would snap back and the laughter reign until you teared up... to proud to admit you miss me 

So dear lady you owe me …  you owe more time , more  smiles and louder crazy laughter more cuddles, more pointless staring at each in silence with a smile of appreciation we don’t need a tragedy to not take each other for granted, I want your gym time and yoga time for bedroom activity put the phone down  because me having to stare at the back of I phone makes me feel lonely … so the next time you to waste it and you have to choose between me and it … remember  we don’t get back you owe me

promise 2 to feel safe lunch note to my future wife 30

to Feel safe

With you by my side in the heart in the thought in the soul, I have no weakness in my armour, the yin and yan baby girl you’re the right karma , war on feet but I could never be calmer  your that Mary j blidge no drama  I would never hut you but swear I am harm them ,Your voice is like a classic old song all wana do is press repeat and listen all day long “good bye honey”... betrays you… most men say their women say bla bla bla , they look surprised when I am like nah nah nah nah I want her to talk more  until my ears are sore she gets past my hard and her voice massages my soft core…you  that fresh beat beat ,  got me in booth focus like an eagle like a laser  a lot heat a lot meat , this love thing we sink our teeth into it is hunt and the fresh meat  when you hunt with lioness and panther you got be a beast … like the flow of river this love will never ceases… you understand my lion and the lamb the world fucking with me have me in jam  at conflict with ubantu i am i am ... we Zim sonz children of earth look at what gave birth to love … I am bleed for it but I know what’s its worth love you dee

I promise to Letters to my future wife 29

I promise to Letters to my future wife 29

Ayo Ma just a reminder of the promises I am going to breathe like they're air, I am not worried if the outsiders stare, actually i want them to but to honest don't i care to be honest  I don’t care as long as you’re the other half of the pair. 1...

To be loved  not just romance, romance is the fluff  but I am give you a lot that to to make up for lost time, the love we talking about is that Corinth 13 type love  no hold bars designed for hard yards i am laying down all my cards type love. I won’t let you feel lonely in a world that makes it easy to be nah  not  with me as lot modern relationship prove, of course as a man I am gonna  try and impress you , but I will lay down my pride if builds a wall and I get less you…
 when I am done I want you to pinch yourself every morning just make sure your not dreaming , when in the bedroom that’s the only time I wana hear you screaming you how I peaches and creaming  (who said that lol) walking down the road happiness has both of us leaning tag teaming your face like the angel you are gleaming , and your secret prayer when your away from  me would be " Mr Gods this man you've sent to me , i love him even thou i don't get him sometimes , explain to me again about this feeling and about him  in my life and the  meaning. Mean while I am trying to comprehend  how after all this time when i see  you walk the first 5 seconds are still happening  in slow motion and the next 5 seconds i hear the ocean. All those little boys who broke you heart i am  make the regret this isn't a competition with them , it just the "i and eye in " me 2 , to be loved is what it means to be married to me 

5ps lunch note to future wife 28

They have no idea what i would do to protect you in this world from this world, as man i was given  the 5p's of being husband, and a father, they are harder for me to do in truth most me struggle with them, the easy part for me is being your lover.

Protector to be your covering to become war on feet, a shield from attacks  a spear and master in the art of war if there be offense to our family and up lifter from the small defeats. There are few times it will happen but as a man I have frailties so, for the god of our family we switch when I am feeling weak, I would not let my pride hurt the us and make us fall, Like Mr God My strength  will always be there on time but maybe not when you call…

Provider… my arms might not always be swole but doing all I can to keep our pockets swole I will provide more than money for us a pair of arms that hold you and try to make you feel more whole, I provide friendship , vision comedy and wisdom  and moments of foolishness so you can be the wise one, I provide comradery, love is a giver I am not too proud to take but that’s why Mr Gods designed me a provider.

Promoter my jobs to build you up not to tear you down as i see alot couple fight over pertty things but thats not why i got this ring, in a world that encourages low self-esteem and messes with the psyche I remind you when we started out we had a dream, i remind you the your beautiful and precious, delicately strong, uniquely crafted , god master peice and a citizen of heaven right here on earth and have always being in my pipe lines dreams, your my franchise player and I and I am going to endorse you.

Prophet my jobs to paint a picture of how good it’s going to be in the long run the end game of accepting my last name , tommorrows never promised  so promise to love you today every day ,  as i move from boy to man (lol) i make love  to you, to the end of the road and i will never let go ... the we shall walk i am unsure, i can guarantuee to be there to the end 

Priest to pray with you before i lay down next to you, three cords are not easily broken when holy words are spoken , songs of solomon  and palms of gensis in silent kisses and the words are not taken a soul awkens . Nobody can love you like me  accept you ,so nody will pray for you like me  and ask Mr Gods in absence to be your protector, provider , promoter priest and prophet  until i get home 

Second scripture... Lunch note to my future wife 27

We break all generational curses with our vows rehearsals , before I say I do I agreed I will do my best never to hurt you , your my inner circle a happy home I am going to build it, sorry we will build some times my passion gets the best of me i guess we have work to do . You make me dance at your thought  I got my pebble I am happy feet, Late nights I am a massage your feet with the deep heat, relax the flow I will massage your body cover you in coconut oil , this so relax but late on I am bring the heat until skin boils, best believe I am taking it ... cant stop won’t stop the hurricane toungues for ever young (who said that) there will no need for faking it , A true Zim sun , the passion you arise with me and wake get to this (laughing). I will war for what’s mine (this love thing) even against myself awe walk like Mraz and Venus, Mr God how did you know that I would need it, late night pillow talk something holy a second scripture  we write and we read it. Your eye are hurricanes , your lips are the moon, your smile pure kryptonite, your ass is the bomb and your waist my hopes for tonight, the thighs hold sacred secret i discover and like, your feet are foundtions and from your ankle i slowly watch magic happen my eyes rise back to your face ... Truly  royalty i rare in generation thats forgetten regal grace ... Every body starts out hot and then1 get normal and some even fall to cold ... never fear about its not game on  when we hold hands its flame on ... the way you wear the last name on 

Brand new Lunch note to future wife 26

I am going to love you like I have never had my heart broken before… open , you don't have pull down walls and go through doors because I want your more, your all, i am far from perfect but I am make sure i am worth it. Non-performance love , you don’t have to do nothing I don’t want your money I want your smile and your funny when I am lost advise me, my patience try me … it not about me it’s about you and it’s  about the bus , I took my single life mind set and throw it under the bus, Looked and cupid and told come fly with us... even if Mr God called me home, i would find away to talk to you in dreams and kiss you with the wind , i sinned  i waited to long tell you , this loves going to be brand new

Mo town love ... Lunch Note to my future wife 25

Ain’t nothing like the real thing young king , as Lionel tapped Marvin on the shoulder they laughed at me as they explained to me about the endless loves, while we were taking it easy on Sunday  morning, “ when she say lets get it on,  you will be like what’s going on boy” Marvin laughed  because I told him this love was "like shot gun , I aint hear nothing through the great vine ,  yeah she a super freak  but its more than that it’s like superstition , this endless love , I can’t help my self , no where to run  I just dropped to my knee like ayo ma I need your love"....  for a moment i had to come back to real time Alicia is never far said it best " some people want diamond rings some people want everything , but i dont want anything if it aint you ... old school came back  Aretha was like "R e S p E cT  shorty told me she met you in spanish harlem , amongst a chain of fools she said she never loved a man like you before  she always day dreaming about you, so while your on tour she will wait until you come back....

I see loves blind ... lunch notes to my future wife 24

It would of being simple but she smiled at me boom shot gun to heart dem dimples... love crazy

I see Mr Gods that love is blind, we see each other aware of the flaws yet blind to hers instead I chose to see… I see her awesomeness her beauty essence that unique thing you put in her that’s makes her, her... a designer original that she is taught to hide and I was put on earth to uncover and uneducated her  with a unique blend of love foolishness and a lot of laughter, I see love is blind she doesn’t see me as a  “all men are dogs , you  can’t be trusted ... let me check your phone” nah , she sees a good man , that King I walking to become and will arrive to with her, that guy  that will hold her 30 -40 years from now infront of a fire. I see loves blind I don’t see attitude, I see confidence sassy personality i see the world through her reality and respect her feminity, If she earned more than me it would not bother me it’s not who brings home that most bacon it’s that “we” eat , She doesn't see a confused hardness of weakness in me she  understands the lion and  the lamb in me , the unique challenges of being a black man walking into the world  hard , and the slowly removing the armour when get home so don’t harm her with loneliness. I and eye that’s our “us” mantra  when I look into her eyes I see the pride  in the panther…

  

you make me smile ... Lunch note to my future wife 23

When you walk through that door I smile (every moments a gift with you ,I waited so long)… I smile that heart smile that our souls connected smile , that ayo ma come here smile, that naughty you know what it is smile, my shoulder start to bop my waist moves my arms rise my finger say come take your place right here where you belong, we dance… intuition and heart beats is our rhythm and blues in the silence cheek to cheek, chest to breast the moment and Mr Gods tell you “this is where you belong”,  when I smile at you the way I do…(you know the way) I do , outsiders looking in to house our lives our love are like “why ?”… I smile even more and  think you have no clue “sean paul we tight like glue” . We connect respect intellect we elect love honor and protect yes please foolishness we embrace ignorance we reject. Pamuhacha (I will meet you by the love tree), you carry last name with regal grace that’s our banner drawing out my most high King Zwagga, no Tsaga. It’s not about me or you but “us” and what we will teach seed in terms of love not being perfect but being in love but still legacy … come to me , I smile you’re the moon I am the sea.

honey (uriuchce ne mukoko) Lunch note to my future wife 22

The confidence in your walk, the presence essence soul sentence, so sexy its in your talk. A woman with drive and a dream, a man with a vision and work ethic we make the perfect team… Pac whispered from the heavens “beautiful black precious and complicated” I am like B “drunk in love” inebriated.. .I can’t explain it.

I am a chocolate teddy bear, uriuche mukoko (honey) so as a couple we that sweet, u muse it, to the music ,you got it, you hot it, so when your gone the kid gets soul sick, but when I see again I am still tongue slick (double meaning) heart beat…  I lost my  mind about you and I don’t wana find it, lying in the grass looking at the stars I drop Barz we own whats ours time even when we a part, for the brave hearts (because love requires courage) we smart the heart designs original so we are the smart art …  ndashaya mazwe (lost for words) when the native tongue is the only way to explain whats hidden in the plan fire we reign … for ever yours the cloud heart