What i real meant pt2 hypo 72

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What I really meant: pt 2

“Woman I love you”

 “And what exactly does that mean the ones before you said the same word, life has me taught, that what I mean by love and what  you mean by love are not the same thing”

“Aight then ….Woman when I say I love you what I really mean is –

I can’t fully explain what happened when we met... i asked Mr Godz what he was think as he molded your clay...  Micheal she knocks me off  my feet when them hips sway i am just saying, you were just driving bye and i got hit in the head with the stray , Women still look good to me but they’re not desirable as you are to me in that way , I tend to listen when angels whisper in my ear and they told me you’re the one and only, we burn slow Ma that’s hot monogamy from my side you don’t have to worry about infidelity, the question is not on me it’s actually on you B...

When I say that I love you it means I am not going to make finical decisions from a place of ego to fit in with the people I don’t even like that will leave us finically crippled, the loss of trust is the butter fly effect which causes storms earth quakes and heart breaks,  I am do my best not stir up them ripples the only thing I want to stir up are your nipples. I am a do my best to build  and what I bring home that's our cake, it’s ours not mine, its not yours … ours…for me it’s about who I am eating with “U” when being there from dry bread sausages and noodles in college to premium steak... 

When I say I love it means you won’t be in relationship  and still feel lonely, I will be your personal psychologist  part time  Gyno… never mind lol , you can act crazy a little bit lol.. And when I ask what’s wrong and you say I don’t know we cannot, not know together while you lay in my hands B. When you speak I will do more than just hear you but I am listen , some men are crazy jealous of their woman’s success when you Shine more than me, number 1 cheer leader, I will never get jealous, I’m going to play my possession we are team when you shine I shine I am not confused about the mission, and when it comes kissing lay it on me you don’t need my permission I stay cheek ready lol. Your body is  sacred to me “ love her body as if it was your own”  Mr Godz said  I love my self  Ma  I will would hurt or bruise or break your bone, the only thing I want to do in get you in the zone .

When I say that I love you I mean I would rather look at your face and have that eye contact it never gets old, I would rather have that than stare at the back of your phone. I genuinely love spending time with you alone, my lips your cheek bones slow dancing two ears and one set of ear phones Marvin Gaye lets get it on, we peoples like that so we share dem dirty jokes for your funny bone, and when Mr Gods calls me home, “he loved unapologetic-ally ” have them write that because it was truth on tombstone... 

Hypothetical ....“U” 71

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“U”

It wasn’t you twerking that held me all night when I got that phone call that my man’s had committed suicide… black and blue my soul was hurting, I was trying to be a man  but you looked past my façade to my  soul life giver energy I start absorbing… Touched me with your light that every Queen has  hidden inside  I felt the hands of nurturer working… For you my queen for us to make this journey there are so many things about false masculinity I am unlearning…Ma that was “U”.

It wasn’t your thigh gap, six pack or flat belly that took the day off work to take care of me. I don’t know if it was the flu or chicken soup that almost killed me (lol) I made it, the flu didn’t that’s all that really matters. I might not always see but I can feel the Goddess with in from sub atomic molecular particles we vibe on the frequency of unseen anti matter, Ma thank you for being full of love and being made from honey and gold, I am trying to drop some truth so please don’t I am trying to flatter … and that was “U”.

It wasn’t the Fat Ass (and trust me I am looking and its righteous back here lol) that held me down when I lost my job  and need to crash, you kept me focused when I was frustrated from looking , all the way the through process you made sure Bald head didn’t take  my crown as a man , “U” reminded me no matter what  I would always  be your man,  trusted in the vision I remember what you said

 “king I trust you keep pushing execute the plan,  I will stop loving you when there is not one grain on earth and mars  of sand , we said whatever my come especially the hard stuff that we never plan” yeah that was “U”.

It was not the nude selfies (thank you thou), duck lips and designer tight clothes that made stay committed after you let me hit it, dam I can’t lie after I got a taste I knew I would not  be  able to quit it “ it’s your Papi are going come get it?). It looks good on the outside but it’s the light that’s inside, and things you randomly sometimes I can’t fully wrap around my mind, you’re not my trophy,  so to the rest of the world  listen up closely …when it starts slip  20-30 years from now I will still slap that ass and say she is my one and only, I aint playing games woman, latter  on to night one on one bedroom basketball, I am the black Mumba drive hard down lane it’s the only time your allowed to call me Kobe lol.. For “U”

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What i really meant when i dropped a knee pt 1 hypo 70

Hypothetically… Hypothetical pt 1 what I really meant …

When I dropped a knee and gave you my pebble and asked you to marry me, to share my last name honor and protect me what I really meant was …

“It crazy  we have being together for so long  and never not once have ever had and argument it kind of bothers and excites  me a little bit what happen if we do? We yin yan  even when we disagree we are kick to back down yield and forgive, the bond between me and you is covered in honesty compassion but mostly common sense,  you’re the steroid like power behind my confidence I can’t say you never thought it (lol) but you have never said a word to rip me down, brick by brick emotion by emotion by these god  moments I do my best to build you  and you have built me to, the bridge between our souls started before time  and runs into the abyss of the unknown I am confident we handle the hard miles, the luckiest man in world  I get to wake to your bad breath but always the most beautiful smile (lol). When I asked you to share my last name  what I truly meant was I will never leave you Norther star… if any man I ever hurt you in any way they might put me away  for 25 to life  [thinking] unless I use the sulphuric acid but that’s another life time don’t ask (lol). I run your defence Ma and since I met you I have fewer scars you hold me down when it comes to mine you’re the moon I am the ocean we kiss and we shine. We  don’t have child together but since we connected I feel like share DNA when Mr Gods create you and me he must of used the same clay, so clique you finish my last sentence like the same way , we said 1..2…3 what would  you name our first child  we laughed so hard when simultaneously we said the same name … w e reign to rain.

Late nights you sit on the edge of the bed and I brush your hair our scared thing mental detox from the stress of the world and child wounds being healed the I am Scarecrow and you’re the rose our bedroom is the field, you lean into strokes and make lioness purring sound. When I am done we switching up position you sit on butt  and massage the knots out of shoulders and my back with love care a lot of pain (lol) and true diligence, in that moment I think to myself Mr gods she is my  heaven sent. Moment by moment brick by brick we build to as close as will get a happy home filled joy and laughter, as close to fairy tale the happily ever after, I don’t have time to save words for the grave so I confess I have  never loved so free, so hard so pure. We live in times that are confused evil, lost and there crazy… there’s a lot unknown but the “me and you” are the only thing I know that is for sure. We are grown up children… vulnerable… anything’s still possible, we are each other’s study so we have so  much more we need to learn, unselfish that braggadocios ooze out the eyes type love goodness our roots run deep we grown up kids who act a little mature. When I dropped knee I meant that I will never leave you.

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Simple plan Hypothetical 69 ( less more meaning)

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It’s amazing to know you’re the yin for my yan not balance harmony ( if war my armery

It surprised me how when I reached out to you, yours fitted perfectly in my hand

I love the way you draw the man out of the peter pan go through my mind like CT scan 

The way we building on this love, I am the foundation you’re the design but us is the plan

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Confession of the cloudwalker hypothetical 68

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Ayo Ma

“have you ever seen an eagle fly high in the sky with one wing so we as a people have being told a tragic lie, the eagle is our people me and you are the separated wings, they have us walking like chickens on the ground, the skies are our heavens we are the original cloud walkers let’s get together and do bigger things, i see that smile on your face when i drop a knee and bring out the ring

When I get to love  the way I want to and  the way  you should be, we will not be the our past nor our future deep eye contact Ma, we are going to be very present and enjoy every moment, we will be the right here and right now no outside noise. You’re the decibel am the sound, I can be the verb you can be the noun, the truest of queens that why I gave you my crown, my soul mate, my unknown feminine parts, my most equal, I love your smile and laughter it’s like watching Mr Gods creative hand paint in the earth , you let me take off the mask of masculinity ... for you and the little girl hidden inside  I will  be heavenz clown.

You being mad at me for a second  I can understand that we messed up... but you still want me  I can tell from your gestures that extra twist in your hips the way you lick your goddess  lips (dam) dropping clues. Lady music don’t sound like music without you, you got the rhythm I got the blues lets dance, besides  I am the man only man on  the planet who makes you smile but walk  funny in the morning remember the long stroke  those spine kisses the ignorance the blissfulness that made you ... Papi ohhhh lol

Ma can I confess I loved you before I fell in love with you i am your covering i am your defence, I was complete as a human being but yet I knew something was missing, deep late night conversation cuddles and random kisses, I guess I would the richest man in the world right now if beggar dreams wishes doing things to you that gave you belly twitches , now lay back let my tongue thigh gap pay  me with your eyes rolling back I am about to do the dishes … it aigh Ma tick that one off your wish list

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Northern Star love Hypothetically 67 ( when your old but still have that teen love)

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Morning routine …True story … and maybe things to come in the future.

He “Miss me Queen” … Her “Always King”

He “how much (playfully)?” … her “constantly immovably”

He “like what?” her … “ like the northern star my position on this love never moves”

A slow kiss  palms slowly part to finger tips and linger, deep eye contact the kind that gets you aroused, finger finally part, she turns around (he) a playfully ass slap, she looks me up down (fake mad cause it not the first time that how we role). He “Go on with your self Queen and have miracle of day your already a blessing to me bless somebody else." We walk  away from each other, we both laugh with the childish occasional look over the shoulder eye contact knowing we both blessed.

Latter on that night …

Getting in the shower together we take time soap and wash each other part of our mental detox from the worries of the world as we enter our own, a promise is being kept to be intimate and to be each other’s study always. It comes at cost to me you get all the hot water I stand in the back and freeze lol it’s worth it . We step out the shower wiping drops of water off each other’s beautiful glisten brown skin naked in body naked in soul we have nothing hide other on the contrary nothing but appreciation over here Ma. We stand in front of the bathroom mirror my hands wrapped around your chest symbolic of our closeness and my defense of your heart; you’re my muse and the foundation of my soul … we are  “I and I” we are “just us” we are  “ a unscripted love book being written and getting better when get in bed  it be getting wetter lol”...

Night prayer “(she) lord thank you for this king (he) lord thank you for this Queen (together) Whatever my come we will always face it together the good the bad the unexpected and the time when we don’t know, and when the world get crazy as it does we are a team, except for you Mr Gods we don’t need no outsider … we are the army”

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Do i ...hypothetical 66

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Do my actions and affections speak …and tell you that I care and I love without the use of words.

Does that thing that i  do to you that make you  goo “oooohhh boy”…lol ..So you do the thing that you do make you higwithout the smell of the herb.

Real talk ma , When it comes the “US” you I will put in the work I only ask for one pay quench that I will always be your only selection.

Do and say whatever you want to I am all about your free, just as long as you respect me, I am I  you are you , when the outside world tries to creep, I will always take your side first we team we not worried about the fake reputations ..

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Yo be like 1... In-to- me see when scars talk

Listen Queen, In- to- me … intimacy is the one thing that I will never starve your heart body or soul of, like the days when you will come back from a long day at work and we can soak it up in a hot bubble bath, I tickle your feminine fat and nibble ear lobes, its sound like heaven when you start laugh we rub your shoulder take a away the stress thats imposed on us by the world , I follow the contours of your body to study the one they call my better half, to find the Y in the formula of love making when i am X, now I am about to do this math. Laying in  the bed we remove clothes we remove masks until the end time just be real with me B that’s all I will ever ask.

While we at it let me touch your scars Ma, the ones I can see and the ones only Mr Gods you and me will ever see. Let my words be healing balm, late nights on the sofa  netflix .. a few snacks  and your favorite resting place my chest and arms,  before you sleep I will a prayer for us and hum you a psalm. Your scars are the most beautiful part of you I wish you never had, but it  was those experiences that you won or lost that made you who you are and that person is rather adored by me  if if part of her are quirky with a hint of crazy. Your scars tell the story a brave warrior a survivor your scars whisper to me “ I with stood the storm, I got back up and rolled with the punches, I am know  who I am and  who I am not, I am not afraid to go to war especially with a true King by my side” . Then I will put you hand on my scars and say maybe you want to take a look inside.

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X queen factor 65 hypothetical

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Dear Mr Gods... ( pen scratching paper...)

I think I met Nefertiti   Candace our Cleopatra, or this woman was one hell of actress with all the beauty elegance grace class and by 10 extreme queen factor, the real thing and not an actor.

 Does it really matter I fell so hard I didn’t hear my heart splatter,  but it didn’t hurt, because I understood this woman worth. I see the inner and outer Goddess not just what hidden by her skirt.

Dear B I come from a generation of men who don’t through we take what’s and somehow we make work .So if you let me love you I am try my best to let these words be healing balm for your hurt

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The tighter the noose... series

Strange fruit....

It used to the darker the berry the sweeter the juice.

Know it’s the darker the skin the tighter the noose.

So I have teach my young king how to be neck proof.

 And hand them a out bullet proof vest for telling the truth.

You were king she was queen from day you were born  you’re the tree we the roots

Born in hell a child of the heaven , we take this mother fucvk#$ of and burn the roof

I sip on gods blood it hit my soul like I am sipping proof ..

… king 

Hyp[ 64 My hearts mechanic...hypothetical

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My heart felt a little bit off it wasn’t working well I so I called the number she show fast my hearts mechanic.

We grew friendship and the love for each other like rock and fungus, yes I know it doesn’t sound sexy but its permanent and we were organic.

We went to war with our Broken selves, our inner most fears the world  and past and I am glad we defeated cynic.

Our happy home that we build well that’s our heart clinic, and when slow dance late at night the movement of natural mystics...

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hyp0 63 African women dont walk they glide . hypotheticaly

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(Talking to myself on my bed looking up at the ceiling)

Who is this woman who has me feeling so alive her presnce is like buzz of bees in hive and the honey sweet she melts in my mouth that some other kind of heat, or sexuality for centuries has being misunderstood so queen with right amount of hood; when African women move don’t walk they glide, we made of gold and honey inside, until the wheel fall let ride

She is a lioness and I am lion so this between us we started off as a pride, the unknown darkness of the future compared to her love she has it shines to bright.What part of her is beautiful her heart her face  her mind Mr Gods i waited along time but you got so right , i don't kiss tell but i am say this the cookies tight 

Your mama should of called you  “lyric” because you a rapper delight, they seem to have a problem with our brown skin they fear and want to be me to  adore you... but want to whore you .. so together we going to fight…  fuck politically correct and being polite , your my woman i am your man  they better get right i am your covering  your  my defense together we run offense and never loss  i never call you bti#$ nah i say married to a Boss  ... your the heaven to me   that northern star till our hair turns grey love ...love

Spoken word artist but you make wana stutter, hands over body you know why you call me butter , mentally sexually spiritually your all that , thought I on liked youu  because the ass is phat… never an object another beautiful human  and no body and this I can attest to nobody can make me feel that way can...

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Hypothetical 62 I will be your ..soft rock

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 I will be your  soft rock gentle enough  to lean on  strong enough to build on, strong enough to hide behind  when the elements of life play rough, solid edges for the world but a soft core for you  but always gentle enough to lean on.

 I will be your sky the place you soar to and saw through or maybe I am just trying to say I think you fly. As your sky I am reflection of your light and I am one start that one star that watches over you as you dream about me to night… I wouldn’t normally say this dream wrong but dream right (wink) lol

I am be your flame  I am bring the passion, intimacy affection desire , that moment when you can’t say nothing,  we are hot monogamy you can be the balloon I will be the air together  we rise, as long as every morning I get wake up and look into those eyes as we get old I wont let your lip your heart and your body feel the cold or lips get dry.

I am your Scarecrow as I watch our love story start to unfold, the young braggadocios love  that oozes out your eyes, tingles in your bell and the artist of many sleepless night , I feel like a like little boys  with the first pure love shy but honest my hand out will you hold it? In the moment I am your scarecrow sent by Mr Gods to watch over you as this love grows, and I have the best seat in the house, ay B did you know that your skin glows? Did you know when Mr Gods sent me he told me not come back home until I found you  the rose

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Woman i am going to wear you out... hypothetical 61

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God lord… woman I want to wear you out …lol … in that way latter but I mean in this moment I mean now, to wear you out with your hand inside mine and tell the whole world we are an “us” thank you Mr Gods  she 360 degrees Divine, I can’t describe how I feel with jot of one line .

Most men love there silver gold platinum ropes, designer watches with stones stolen from African lands, flashy rings, ear rings, belly ring some rings we won’t mention…lol it not really for me  her face is my watch in hard time , the gentle hand squeeze affirming nod amd her smile tell it going to fine .

I keeps it simple I have the greatest jewel of all you not that I can possess you I just assume you give yourself to me because the loving is sweeter chocolate cake, and I want to wear you out on my right hand side with your palm inside mine , I want to wear you on my lips at random  times they look a little bit dry do mind if use mine I can gloss them up until we both shine, I and when we alone in private that body collide , every line of your body I want to memorize in the depth of my mind time after time.

Some people love the feel of cold steel and stone because they shine they use their cell phones , there watch is for status it doesn’t tell time, maybe I am fool but I love that warm tender caramel skin warmth baked to perfection by our African sun  and smells just a good to make you wana ooh wooo… I hope don’t salivate ..Oops a moment now it’s too late. So woman are you going to give me your hands so I can wear you out, or should iwait until you ware me out ..lol

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