Text 17 Queen Bee

So Queen Bee..., lips made uche (honey) sweet honey maker, wombed a life giver yet my breathe taker, home maker heart mender when we are apart the heart achier , ice cream  cake, caked  top licker  healer of the lonely but soul feels sicker, when i seen't you my heart beat quicker , on my lunch break crunchy sweet snicker , forbidden fruit but i am be a picker, i be on my hustle Cookie Lyon just your hustles a  little bit slicker, she my lover and my nigga , the way you fill them jeans  got me thinking about becoming a  thigh licker ,conversation on the level, i want to play soccer mentally the goal  keeper and goal kicker, she the bomb can't you hear the ticker, the way you move on the dance in private in the bed invented the Richter, ever things thicker  , hip lips thighs topped off with angel eye's crispy brown skin like downtown fries, "nah i ain't sprung like that" listen to me lie , i use the hurricane tongue to have throwing up gangs signs (lol what ), Special forces we  navigate lifes land mine, she got the kind jewels that you can t find  inside the richest of Africa mines, Mr god i don't want to share her with the world i want her to be me, all mine . So so street, head rush sweet , salty sassy  ferocious unconquerable soul, the special meat , on the gun range she is the Armour piecing heat, in my arms under the sheets the "i am make hell jealous"type hot heat , Female J Dilla she knows my style my rhythm and composes my perfect beat ..( take her hand left side to chest)...the perfect beat

Text 16 foundtions

Shorty knows  the secret, half the strength of our home now and for ever, our ancestors first  did it , they came and they stole it but we resurrect it and live it … I’ll do my best to give it, so never again will they break the back bone to corner stone. If they try they see the glocks’ tech9’s sawed off , and eagle all chrome. She calls me the head but what she means is I am foundations , a house on faulty foundations is sure enough to fall to fall… When the weather of life plays rough and it will I get hit first, when there is lack or drought in any department of life the children then her eat first…I eat last because I am strongest at night when pray as a family I drop the first verse, I am not my ego I am the Cloud  part of my promise was to demolish certain parts of a generational curse, word is bond shorty hold accountable to until I a riding in the Herse ...

Text 15 beleive

You don't believe me until it happens right ? that  I could love in ways that make the sky break open ... Adore you in ways that make Angels  stop stare and tap each other  on the shoulder and whisper "i would be dammed he got it". i Want you  in a way where i see them (other women) but i only want you (true) that makes Halle berry and Beyoncé ask what’s you secret to him from cheating  and passion so fresh and African drum night keep beating. Its pretty Shorty is my sweet thing , i got sweet tooth  mixed in deep roots nurtured in soul truth the only time  we take a  selfies we be stunting in the soul  booth , Evolve but never  change just know that i love you ... you ... she bae

text 14 Black magnets

Like colliding of planets ... explosive we implode  crumble slowly to one to explode the energy of black magnet, exponential growth like Warren Buffet  invested in the asserts, instant down for pleasure , but we play the game and listen to music of "us" like Vinyl, still press rewind like we cassettes, my chips on the table my eggs in basket because  my Knower, knows something the ancients whispered its not like gambled, when i knee dropped and frosted the lefty sure thing no bets , not regrets, worth the love  when you wipe the swet, something about this woman a billion of us and the only one caught in this net .... i write high in sky the lines of jet , Shorty come close for a lifetime i want to whisper loves secret

When we were young

When we were young

She never  had to where makeup and stuff, it would covered up what was her beauty

 To me she is my ...soul and untold story reflections much like the "diamond in the wrath"  

 If they would let "we", we would be 2 lovers holding hands in the dawn walking in a park

 Young eyes looking the part … the match and the spark

Like the  love of a single mother nothing in the cupboard but there is love in heart
There is superman here bullets pierce into  Clark

 We look  at the stars sometimes they says it stupid  but I c god in them.

In your eye’s I would rather be inadequate 2 c what c would take you life a time .

 And maybe a lot pain .. …  umm  for me just smile and choice

We help each be whole  you seem to have forgotten the concept of soul

 I pick her flowers .. sometimes she cooks for me

 We might be stupid .. this is not confrontation but you are not that smart

Deceit and malice but also hope gentleness love come form the heart

 There was a time when I was in love with you

 But gifts of my heart where in inadequate and a fool

I wanted to ride the bus with you  and snuggle  and laugh but it wasn’t cool

I will be honest it was all I could afford to walk you home .. and look you deep in the eye.

I don’t wipe your tears because I was the reason why you wouldn’t cry

The reality of the 21th century is not romance

 Holding your cosmo you walked away with out second glance

you watch movie stars  and still watch god true sky art

 and pray  4   you to be  blessed where ever you are 

Series 2 ... Cloud , Sammy and Fafi the happy dysfunctional family

“Crazy enough to love me” The new addition is the daddy daughter series starting in series 2. 

A very transparent intimate, raw painful a times and humouress relationship between the two . As In dimension 3 Cloud attempts to School Samantha about not only the double standards she must navigate as a young black woman in the world, but the double standards she must be ready to fight and out think  in the confusion/battle of the sex’s. The juice is in the battle every man must face when his daughter reaches puberty… slowly resentfully letting the little girl grow into her woman hood, holding on and letting go close enough to guard need be , but far back enough to let her make her own mistakes so she grow to be strong… breathing  hope into her lungs and yet being the one to try and guide her through the cold realities of society without dis enfranchising her. And we have the unofficial wife Fafi and best friend of Cloud, an extremely absurd friends with privileges that went so right its going wrong, Fafi whom after 12 years of raising Samantha as her own daughter filling in the Oshun energy to feminity  feels her biological clock ticking and she wants a Baby of her own by Cloud and that last official commitment level … marriage … but wait there is more lol stay tuned

Cold Doses of reality "Crazy enough to love me" teaser

“Don’t you dare question my parenting skills or my love for my daughter, you people have the nerve with your lies and twisted ass narrative of shadow truths and versions, you have the nerve to question my “y”. You care more about your coffee, your image on social media fake, and where your dog shits , more thank question where your children are ? Who they with? And where they are emotional at? When I talk to daughter she gets all of my attention, eye contact and affirmation she is precious , not a text or a voice from the back of a phone  screen, We are ubantu we don’t raise our children we connect and nurture them “kurera”- imprint myself in her, she gets me and I turn up, all of me . We live in New Zealand  a country with highest suicide rate in the world, if that’s good parenting then don’t …just don’t tell me how to raise mine I want to keep her alive thank you. The majority of suicides amongst ethnic youth are a direct result of racial bullying by your seeds, and you think I am send my daughter out into the big bad world a black girl emotionally mentally and ass whoop naked, you got the wrong one  and yes I taught her how to fight I am Sensi,  and my questions who teaching the racism and bulling it’s in the school or in the homes and you want to talk to me about parenting the pot calling the kettle black…I will be dammed if I bury my daughter or mine because the seed doesn’t fall far from the tree your kids are a reflection of your ass, some body … you! are raising these savages monsters and verbal murders, you don’t have to squeeze the trigger to be the murderer , just give the order that’s a cold doses or reality my daughter has to face  to survive you can not be trusted , that stupid girl outside the door attacked my seed and she is lucky she only lost 2 teeth action have consequences just us not justice,  and I would tell my daughter to do it again , and again , and again until yours get it through there thick skull them days of yes a master are gone for good, I knew taking her  from home school to this bullshit this was likely to happen ... the education system failed your children so what its ssupposed to do for mine? 

Text 12 Hard yards

“

Taka bvakure”- (translated we have come a long way), so we already done them hard yards, when it comes to the love that me and you practice it’s not so much that I love hard (and I will) , but I try and find smalls ways every day to raise the bar, a house is just  a house home is where ever you are, , I feel our intangible  our connection is written in the heavens barely legible… with your permission I want to love you from the inside out removing all doubt, I wan’t to make you feel things that only lovers take about, I want to get to so good you ask Mr Gods this Boi you given what’s he doing to me and what’s happening to me 

Father daughter "Crazy enough to love me 2" teaser

Cloud .... So precious, so extra, so scary that your so like me ... and have your mothers looks.

"My baby she is growing up... to fast, its hard knowing how much to hold on and how much to let go of and let her make her own mistakes, and whether to strike him with lightening now or latter ?"

Fafi "your being over dramatic Cloud, they are just kids having fun together, innocent fun like we did back then  "

(raising an eyebrow more concerned) Cloud "Don't remind me there was nothing innocent about our fun back then... Umm ... it starts with the ice-cream a few laughs , the slow slide in then he is going to try lean Black Moses 101, the old ice-cream and laugh , with the accidental hand touch trying to create the magic, these young thunder ain’t bring nothing new to the game just a re run of the O.G"

Fafi "Your reading too much into it they are just kids having fun they're are there you are here watching ... just ice cream"

Cloud "I am reading alright i am reading his arbitrary, if his grubby hands touch her, i am telling you its starts with ice-cream, you blink for a one second you wake up to grand babies screams (summoning lightening) ready ...aim … "

Fafi " Cloud  if you hit that little boy with lightening, you lose her trust , trust me i used to be a little girl ... you have to trust her decision making,  you gave her good teaching"

Cloud “ it’s not her I don’t trust it’s hormones I don’t trust”

Return to the mecca "Crazy enough to love me" teaser series 2

Father daughter in the studio 

[Jazzy tone]

"Can I return to the Mecca

The house of stone  where I belong to

Time  to go home , so I can sit on this this thrown

Can I return to the mecca…"

Cloud … “ baby your my world and some times  it just not good for me to sugar coat things i got raise you strong as black woman in this world and this world cold, first we build your mind feed your spirit the body will follow naturally"

Sammy “ I know dad i love you…so hit me I am ready”

Cloud “ There is man name Cecil John Rhodes he lived  long time ago Mr God has a special place in hell for him …

fathers LOVE BROKEN

He lays on top of his son’s grave in the foetal position … cramps in his stomach tears in his eyes he tries to sing but it is interrupted by cries his hands shake his lips quiver he tries … Bob Marley “ they kill them before they grow… so I shot the sheriff but I didn’t kill the deputy”…

I remember the first time you said it “Dad I want to be just like you” every man worth his salt in swet beats his chest when he hears it for the first time from his son“ little man wants to be just like me lol did you hear that Mr God like me …?”Until those words hit his soul and that man thinks to himself “ but you don’t know what it took to make me little man I was born in hell fire, if i told you some of things I had to endure and survive to be me… your toes would cure and your hair would turn grey and maybe your heart would turn grey just from listening, I don’t show you my scars not to be deceptive but to avoid making you a Cynic of life to early”

“I am sorry Troy I promised to protect you to your father to your mother most important to you and I failed because I believed there lies I knew the evil they are and trusted them with something as precious as your life, they say he who doesn’t not protect his children is worse than infidel sorry will not bring you back… (His stomach tightens he almost throws up… his voice in my head)

Time slowed down, it felt like I had left my body and I watched as my soul cringed slowly and painfully, it’s the strangest experience to be the third person watching like a voyeur of your own life and feeling sorry for yourself, for the first time in my life I was feeling and experiencing something totally new and I did not like it at all, no sir not one single bit. It had nothing to do with me as a human being and who I was as person, it had nothing to do with who I was in Ubuntu, it had nothing to do with the good teachings my loving parents have tried to impart into me to make me a good man. It made my inner light dim, it made my ears deafen toward the sweet whispers of the ancestors, the worst part was that it made feel distant from Mr Gods, whatever it was  it truly ugly “get it off me !” “Get it out of me!”,  As I watched myself struggle with it, I had never ever felt so helpless. For the first time ever in my life with my nap pulsing and my muscles shaking, they had found a way to make me feel hatred and it was toward them, as the salvia slowly dripped down my cheek from the place that it had landed.

[me speaking to myself]

Letter to my inner king….

Wake up!… I need you to wake up again. I know that I am the one who did it… did this to us, it’s my fault, I am the one who lay you down to sleep, but please understand that I only did it to protect you from an enemy who was hell bent on destroying you in your infancy before you had learnt how to war and survive the strange assassins of manhood and brutish emasculating force of life designed by them the bald heads, the problem lies in this you have being asleep so long that a part of you has forgotten who you are, you started becoming a king while you were still in your slumber, but when I had laid you down to sleep you were a prince, and as a prince precious lessons on how to war were missed, when you were violently woken up in chains and they fooled you into believing  you’re a slave. But of late your deep inner thoughts betray you with visions of crowns family history and glory, your soul dares you to hold your chest up with a pride and dares you to beat to let the ancestors know that you still here … while you whisper ancient prayers into the wind and talk with the sky, your intellect has deducted that somethings amiss and your nostril hair burns because of the scent of the deeply rooted lie about your identity burns, your heart has spoken to you with words that are foreign to them but you understand each letter clearly, but these words don’t make sense to your circumstance… as you question and quiz yourself …  when was the last time you ran free in paths of your own mind and the plans of your own land of true originality, when was the last time  the inner beasts in you roared so loud they garnered the heavens attention and shook hell itself, your roar was so pure with life and essence your lungs were empty and all pain and frustration was elevated,  all who heard the roar in the inner sanctum of your head fell to one knee and you were  once again the master of your fate and the feeler of own heart…

Please wake up… wake up please

I give you my word as it is bond and if I must I will draw my own blood to make a mark that I will I will never make you sleep again, this is the last time ever that we will be parted one heart one soul one mind, I will war for you, without you I am incomplete and our separation was like a walk through hell and time felt like an eternity … don’t open your eyes because they are already open … I need you to wake up for me, we are the last of our kind a dying breed and if you don’t wake up soon we will be extinct … Wake to me … reign as your ancestors did to my inner king… Dziva wake up!

Text 11

Tehn he is a student of the game , as for me I amore daring yet humble I am student of the flame, unexpected  unique beautiful experience that come with you + my last name, you make me happy, your not responsible for my happy but I would be lying if I said you’re not my world, I wife you I frosted the lefty with ice but life, no amount gold could be sold  for things we do that are un told … gift for keeping and studying the flame was pearl , look at know I am temptation my girl…

Text 10 Fools look

Woman you know I am willing to look like a fool for you, if my pride , my fake God image , low self-esteem or over blown ego , create any type of barrier between us and deny me the sweetness of the realness and real thing then they must die, our funny faces , dirty inside us , us jokes , ass slap, over, exaggerated  gangsta rap signs plus the handshake , the slow tongue , or tongue slow moments when I watch in silence like stalker but really it’s how your skin glow, I want it all, Mr Gods removed the earth and im know is this full first class fall. ... 100 send 

Text 9 work one in life time

Some men who are lucky and brag about their women like women like “ I got me a 1 in million type woman”, I shake my head and give thanks, I have bigger problems, I have a “once in a life time type woman”, her beauty started when she decide to believe in herself , let me tell you  a story the first time I met her I tripped and fell and being falling ever since , don’t judge me it’s a full time job don't you understand  the amount of energy it takes to love  all the womanly goodness that she is ( whipping swet off the brow)… I love my job, i put in work, i am her Raphel (arch angel of healing) bringing to mind fresh information or new ideas that becan used as valuable tools to pursue healing from whatever is ailing her for the better of us.

Text 8 lights down mic up

(Gently putting her in the chair moving back .... spot light)

" i am about to sing it to her just the way she likes , so I would appreciate it if you turn up the mic but turn down the light. (Tapping the mic)... There can’t be anything wrong with loving you in way that one day they won't remember me  all they see will be you,  i gave up good days and took up her days, mythical like mermaids , deep heart cuts true blades, i am never on top for her i am foundations laid, your 5 moves ahead of me but i am like check mate frosting the lefty ...shorty that’s how the games played

Crazy enough to love me "i love d you before i fell in love with you"

Nothern Star Meet the  ... Wife 2 Cece

"we loved each other before we fell in love with each other, like roots and earth, like air and lung, like touch and feel, that's how we got connected and still are connected its our nature... to be "

In-to- me -see = intimacy... 

We created and  lived in our own little world most of the time and we were happy and content, how and when did we do i have no clue , the funny thing is we wanted more "just us" time, not more stuff just our time alone together sacred, comfortable being misunderstood and not looking for the worlds acceptance understanding nor approval, we had something special  we had each other un-apologetically Adam and Eve minus the fig leaves and the sin love, and still connected to the forever source ...Mr God,  that which spoke with no words , heard with no ears and felt with no hands we understood each other , way to often accept for "us", the walls listening , angels and Mr God most people didn't get us , but  i think that's how we were supposed to be , a modern day "Beauty and the Beast" and I was the beauty of course, just kidding she was always almost timeless in essence beautiful, the perfect flaw the kind of awe that  broke the sky's and made the wind stop . We loved each other before we fell in love and maybe that’s why we were next level in every way possible , to this day what "it" is and how "it" became  that way is still a mystery to me ,it is one of those questions i will ask Mr God when he calls me home for good. 

Crazy enough to love prelude...

“Crazy enough to love me”  the book,  I wanted to create short stories that were palatable  the kind of thing you get into bed and read for hour, laugh cry and be like that’s “so me” or tha “so them” inspiring and humane, and had the twist of culture and super natural…alive , but free enough to write in real time and make adjustments so as I grow the book does the characters do the plot does and you can feel it , you tell me who doesn’t want love respect and validation the books content is designed as a supplement but it allows immerse with deep painful truths to inspire change , I use humor as a pain killer to not truth stopper. 3 elements in book write graphics images and my favorites music all come together to create one story our own story… me it personally you have to be crazy to love me I am hard work … but I am worth it 

text 7 talk to your self

I am love Dee in ways only Mr Gods whispered in my ears “do this” … Cloud  “uum I got you,thank you for the hook-up, dad”…[while she sleeps i watch her I begin to understand  the word evolve differently truthfully she is light] ... I hope I love in ways that make words hard to come out right ,no fever but the words are not right captured that would be an allusion  (what you know about that) I wont ask …ask if ever, but I inside my soul this world will never understand… they let themselves get robbed, bad love terrible…(lol)  kind of love that makes man do anything to make her feel feel what feel…shit! Its real kind bulls hit love that someone steals you heart while watching and whoop ass but aint do nothing , your dumb ass smile shaking your head laughing to your sel “ go muffin” no huffin puffin no house to break down it was always yours , so soul sister we were righteous for the cause

text 6 fool

I was looking for love and i met it and I found it, 1000 ... a million times in your awe , your mistakes , dam in in your mind , I am get dirty so I have to mine, a poet and beast and I cant get it in the jot of one line, Mr Gods you got to stop playing when she smile, I get but it but I miss it every time so I godeeper into her mine but i don't mind. I am trying to be smart… i wana see her head with my head but all I see is heart a muse an art Mr God whats art ? then he whispered back love doesn’t need anybody’s approval to beautiful and I have given you a fistful stop playing cool fool, I replied grateful ....100 ...  send

text 5 flaw - less

We all have flaws, when I look at yours with my eyes wide shut, I am not blind but to be honest there anything nothing there to find, my head on your lap there nothing as precious piece of mind I love the slow kiss kissing Mr God allows us to taste time, I aint no fool I aint going to let life pass me by… I dropped a knee you took the last name we promised each other a life time I cash in the whole cheque , no dis respect that’s where I am at

text 4 wordless

When i am away from you to long water doesn't taste like water any more, and i find it hard to call the sky’s the heavens.  So much class with matching ass only matched by the sass and she afraid to smart trash, kindness in the heart but not afraid to get hood  so crazy as teens we got up to not good, i can't dance when you way your my happy feet pebble me hug me tease … me easy lol, a grown ass man on teen love i miss you so much i can't even eat, funny when i see you again i stand strong but earnest my feet get weak, smiles no words souls when souls speak 100 send ...

Cloud as a super hero text 3

Cloud is unique as super hero because he doesn't fight for right or wrong he could not careless on the contrary, he is very contemptuous of humanity its vanity  and its moral bankruptcy, he is happy to watch humanity suffer  he is demi God Evil won’t pick a fight with him if he is neutral, unfortunately he has no choice but to fight evil because the people he loves exist in the same world  and that’s what brings a flavor to his character and decision making process, he doesn't fight for humanity like batman man or superman , he fights from a place of love for small group of people and over flows to humanity and because of that some of his moral choices confuse people… he is very picky about his fights  and the darkness is aware of this… alot of the juice is right there

Frosting the lefty ...text to my future wife 2

I feel you shorty like i feel my own pulse excited scared wide eyed like a child who’s dreams have never being broken … Marriage, is a lot things it’s supposed to be fun  and exciting testing discovery of self and the other... confusing we figure it out that's art that's the craft thats "our"cleave, never goes as planned and sometimes serious business to I got you i am soldier… In frosting your lefty I feel like I stepping into the amusement park of life with my best friend scared and excited I hold your hand tighter, I am poet I can’t write it a lot rides dam it we going to ride it. Some rides will cute nice and slow candy floss romantic and some will have me screaming like white chic in horror movie stuck in the attic ( get off me ! lol … sorry babe) as long as you by my side  I ride feeling delight catch me when light headed, love is like a dream when find it  to protect it you go ape and run riot .. love you lol 100 … send