42 hypothetical... Chocolate king for you

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What if I was some deep dark creamy crunchy chocolate bar and you had yourself something awful a sweet tooth… and at any time you could sink your teeth into me…lol … but I told you it was okay if we abstained from the hunger, because I know you’re coming off of loves battles fields, and I am not sure if you properly healed from the pain, we medicate our emotions with sex sometimes I don’t want  to be him… the one to perpetuate the cycle in loves name, your worth the wait to me... trust me B,
 I do want the cookie I am cookie monster full times munchies… but your sacred to me, love making should be god ordained even if we know without the ring its sin, I do want to smash I want land the dam plane but i want passenger of your delicate heart to be safe .

You can reach into my soul because its full of goodness…. deep red mother earth type African soil, and you like the baobab tree drink deep with your roots because we make this  permanent… they see the surface but can’t conceive the connection between you and I that make us “I and I” under the earth. Possibly unapologetic-ally you could get lost in me safe in my arms seems like a myth in a culture of hook up but you can trust me, with your pleasure and your boy did I mentions orgasms come with a warranty lol.

What if we were two slave running away from the world… running never looking backward at conformity, our skin colour is fidelity we took off running when we saw a chance for the “for the happily ever after”, as they chase us we were not afraid to be the set apart couple never lonely, but kind of lonely, knowing we are not perfect but in love and that was the freedom for us…. hands souls and temperaments that fit perfectly … chased as we hold hands pursuing things they could never conceive that’s our truth certainly… i know it burns keep run we now what behind us so lets find out whats in uncertainty.

“I want to be as close as the holy ghost is” lyrics that define what I want to be for you but can’t humanly do, silently jealous of sunshine and that way it makes your skin shine it gets to be absorbed in places that should be mine … and the soap can get it to because it touches parts of your body I don’t get to… running down your lines, the inner thigh diamond mine, but my tongue should get an A plus trying

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41 Hypothetical ... Time traveller

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What if your broken/scared heart stopped being afraid to feel and you gave your self-permission to heal and love again, instead of seeing me as a “man” the enemy, I was the homie lover friend at the risk of your wrath and rejection I come to you with my open heart and true affection… in my smile  softness see your reflection.

What if I was not so hypothetical more than a thought deeper than a concept, flesh and bone embodied by a spirit flawed like yours, what if I had a scent you could remember and my voice had a tone to turn you on, I had insecurities and fears masked by a confident smile and laugh and when I looked at me you knew you were my selection ... my strength  but my weakness, you have feeling like boy smiling yet speechless

Crazy to think right? That I might hold you all night and finish your last sentence when I say ….? And then you say, bedroom play that isn’t fore play, intimacy which would actually be in – to me –see moments of truth the just you and me, the stuff that legend folk law and fairy tales are made of but wait heres my palm, its I real I have pulse I have heart beat I am alive… and you have me

So here’s my secret, I am a time traveller come to back to this moment right here right now just tell you, in the future you will have jiggly bits that I will make them jiggle often and when I do you will squeal in orgasm, you still look amazing to me after so many years I will still find it hard to breathe when I am around you but play it cool, I will slap that  ass when you leave the room which will gross out our children, and the impossible happened we love each other even more as times passes and re write we-story… my abs have faded but you don’t care and even with hair that’s grey you still call me sexy… sexy …I came all the way back to tell you we gonna be fine…

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40 hypothetical... "What if"

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What if I was good conversation to you and we never stopped talking, how do you feel about meeting me by our soul tree, wrap around me like a vine and love me, love is blind but what is this I see, I want to get inside you like the smoke lungs and irie… no doubt that it’s you that I am wanting

What if we were a journey and our feet refused to stop walking, do you hear that, that’s the bedroom calling, should we lie back and have a deep conversation, or get down with to hugging sucking munching and touching, it’s all about you whatever you want as long as it’s you I aint even fronting... 

What if I was greedy and you were food and I am eating it up, If you were a glass of wine and I said bottoms up (lol), these cloud passing by head reminding me that I am falling, I can’t wait to hit the ground and die to myself and awake to us, you see… I wish you could see you through my eye’s, the perfect flaw with the extra and whole lot more, finger licking good for the tasting

What if I wanted to get drunk and your good stuff in the cup … what up, I play it cool but when you’re gone I am acting a fool, heavy weight walking talking about how Kings and Queens rule, I rebuild your femininity and you run defence on my masculinity team we is a beast we winning… bring those succulent lips over here my lips are dry wet them up with the kissing

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39 hypothetical ... Safe and soft place

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I am that place and person you go to when you feeling low, tired, they battered your self-esteem, they made it hard to breathe they made it hard to dream, you being strong for yourself  for so long that my comfort feels wrong and you yet you long for it, you can be real with me my shoulder and chest are waiting for you don’t have to put on a show no more..

I am the place where you can be you unapologetically … sometimes I am stronger than you and sometimes your stronger than me that’s why we (laughing) are we, weakness is okay and tears unapologetically flow, I isn’t going nowhere I am your scarecrow, I fight the crows and watch over your heart soul and dreams goals, you were wholeness happening when I met you I can only help see it to fruition

 Can i ask you “whats wrong with you?” and you can reply truthfully “I don’t know”, and its fine as a man I want to fix it, but this time it’s just fine we don’t now and we alright with I just hold you , come sit in my arms, non-performance unconditional type love, I am cool with it we are an anomaly because I know it came from above, it’s not that fluffy type fickle nah, its longer suffering patient not understanding but accepting type love…

And know I won’t judge you or go, the roots run deep the love tree will face the different weather but always grow, have I told of lately your beautiful but you already knew that like the waves understand the shore…

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Dark butter fly 1

I am only eva the reflection of my soul a black butterfly a reflection of a free soul that still knows the voices of the ancient’s and I am not afraid to dance with wind nor talk to the sky they tell me stories of their journeys and places I can only dream of in the heavens… having said that I tell them my stories to, I have being places I wish I never had to go and seen things that made my soul cringe, but I had to see them for there was no other way to forge another very hidden side of me to be dark yet powerful completely un predictable, hidden scars from dancing with demons in shadows of storms, dark cold cruel and unusual, paying a price for crimes that are not even mine iwas found guilty, I have seen more battles and lost them yet still… I have an unbroken will… “Step up an infinite soldier of the light every time with good heart that’s your inheritance and true soul that’s your true mirror… anything less than that is unacceptable for you will become like those you despise”. Go ahead now and fly…

 

38 When i am dead and i am gone- part 1

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From the other side while she dreams I ask god to let me go back and whisper in her ear

now that I am gone -part 1…

She wipes the last tear from her eyes and lays down to sleep

“Hey Ma, I know every day while I was with you I let you know you were my rib, the soul that I touched to be complete, the blue… the flame … the heat… the gifted one I gave my last name, I called you by your true name a Queen never anything mean accept silly when were being silly, accept for that name we use in the bedroom lol… um girl you got some freak in you lol don’t get me wrong I like it … and now that I am dead gone for kids I need you to be strong and hold on and for them to keep going.

I need you to remind our seeds as they get older how when they were first born, I would get back from work or tour and the first thing I would do would be to pick them up and press play and repeat and would hug each other in a love circle and dance to that one song all night long until they feel asleep… tell them how I would take us all down by the river side and I would play the guitar and you two would sing my beautiful rock stars, twinkle twinkle from where I are now that I am gone ...

 I need you to remind our seeds how when each and every one of them was born and the nurse was handing them to me… I would act like I was receiving a Grammy, Emmy, Oscar and Stella all in one night, while I gave my dramatic speech about how we did this and the hard work we did, when you carried them for 9 months and looked like you were dying in labor pain, Yes we did this don’t get mad at me talk to god about our roles... good team effort though… lol… okay so even from this side my humours still a bit wrong. Tell them how I would chase you around the kitchen, the master of random kissing, there daddy was laughter soldier who always played his position, that you trusted me with your heart in my palms because I was always uplifting  Now that I am gone…

I need you to remind the kids how while I was tour, I got drunk with uncle Mike and missed you guys so bad I had the whole family tattooed on my right arm, called her at midnight asked to put the phone by your ear and repeated the 23 psalm, the right arm which is my strong arm its says a lot about what you all mean to me, how every night after they fell asleep I would open my bible and over them read at least one psalm

Remind our young king how I taught him how to fight and throw them 2’s after he came home beat up by a bully, and then I told him the next day not come back home unless he won the next fight, yeah I was that dad hiding in trees and bushes just in case the bully needed to be put in place, and when he won that fight I whispered to breeze “we breed the…  that's how get it on son” … and I carried him home on my shoulders and explained that I would always be there, so now that gone remind him in life he will have to fight on and on and on now that he carries the baton. Now that I am gone

I hope you say I wasn’t perfect but I was a good man, never stingy with love, hugs random kisses wisdom and gentleness for the soul, that look when yall get heated, I pray that I taught you to value simple things and bad my dad jokes that go on and on and on... Now that I gone

Remember how when we bought the new house, we blessed every room ether style lol and some rooms twice, isn’t that how the first one was born lol.. Now that I gone I give you my permission to find another man I don’t want you to lonely, I am still the jealous type so if he gets struck by lighten a few times ... I am just saying I get my flambé on, I didn’t mean to leave you, I love you I am gone …

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37 hypothetical... Grey love

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The worlds (The dream and reality) once asked us what our favourite colour was, we looked back them like they were fools, then we looked at each other and laughed and at the same time we said “grey of course”.

You see for us grey was our end game when we entered this amazing thing that we have and found love, grey would be our promise to each other to keep going on, our bond our healing balm in the hurricane speed of life it would be our calm place and our song. Grey would help us whether the storms of life and deserts patches of relationships. There were moments when we had the red the passion, the love making, deep tongue kissing, slow dancing surprise romancing and even heated fights when words that are to take back were spoken, but it was the grey that showed up in moments when “we don’t know if we will make it but we keep it pushing babe I got you and you got me and that’s all that we know while we walk in the dark

 here take that all we need”.

Yeah we had the pink to cuddles, random kisses, eye contact which was conversation with no words, I could create magic for you simply because you believed, you could jump knowing I would catch you that young braggadocios love, as always grey was there when the coin flipped and both of were half crazy when we had our first baby and were two young adults trying to figure it sleepless nights and meaningless fights, grey held us down together in the business of life, you got the promotion and I was on tour changing location but the grey never let BB kings “ the thrill is gone” get to strong, somewhere in the grey was the red and the pink just not so visible, it was grey love that held up the ship when we were threaten by life that we could sink.

Of course there was the green when the adventure had just started, I loved to explore your body… anytime I could I think I got a PHd in it lol. You became my study as i delved into your mind I never fully understood it but I got it… being a master Historian of your past but not allowing it to affect our future was a challenge I can’t lie, it didn’t always work, but we were so determined for our own story we bleed a little bit but we arrived at glory, luckily the grey was there when the insecurity of aging popped its ugly little head up, grey sat us down our school master and taught us how to evolve together, grey reminded us to speak to each other in right love language not to speak at each other but to each other. To know each other seasons, to give each what we needed in that season not what we wanted to give out of selfishness and fear…funny enough in the grey we were the closet purest honest vulnerable versions of ourselves and felt good… in the grey we were one flesh one bone.

So when I look in the mirror and I see grey hairs I smile because I know we did the hard yards, in the grey are all colors you just can’t always see them there no white because it wasn’t always pure, there no black because it wasn’t always dark, the is pink red yellow brown all mixed up so good you just grey… Grey was the promise when we started this thing to grow old and grey together grey was our end game …

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36 Hypothetical... Soul loving

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I never thought that I would fall so in love with you, that I would miss you in your sleep... I am like “babe where were you?” and you reply “I was sleeping fool” lol “my bad”... your another me (one flesh one bone) , that I didn’t know that I needed until I got what I needed to understand something was lacking a shining star in my eyes and in my life ... thank you for choosing me

 Mind body and spirit which one shall I work with first, the unknowns scares us both, are you prepared to be an anomaly in this world, I can’t heal you but I can break the loneliness curse, for what’s it worth men’s words verses there action have left you sceptical, I am your soul food to sustain your diet, cardiologist heart fix specialist can you conceive the science, I will never hurt you, I will war for you but the loves so intense its savage almost violent, we took the price tag off this thing a long time ago when god gives you something like this its priceless… all rolled in one  Nefertiti, Candace, and Cleopatra, young queen can I add you name to the time list.

I sit by the ocean quiet time conversations with god, when my soul can be transparent, in her around her missing her … it doesn’t matter as long as it’s her. Lord it aint right ? who is this woman who made me stop window shopping, she got me trapped with this lip locking, doing things I never thought I would be, looking in the mirror like who are you, this is shocking. So I know it’s not infatuation crazy enough to be obsession it’s got me passing, thinking about popping last name question.

3 part beings … what, I wasn’t gonna leave out your body which is my body, hurricane type tongue game I aint lil wayne but I make it rain, shit you wana call it out but have no breathe for my name, if its all same sometimes we make love and then we do that other thing, that up against a wall, nails in my back straight after work... I am just saying, and when you bring out the hands cuffs, I am thinking dam she aint playing.

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message of the day - Hot monogamy life time

If I am attracted to your body you might get me for a night or a season when i find a better one i will leave , but if I am attracted to your mind character spirit and relate and accept your flaws, you will have me for a life time … - the scarecrow

35 Hypothetical How i treat in private and public

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The way I treat you in private is the way I treat you in public, I want the world to know I am sprung and make them jealous because someone as precious as you choose me, you’re the queen of this man’s heart, they say I shine but she is the light of my soul, they offer me diamonds and gold, but in my arms I already hold the most precious jewel, the good book say she is worth more than what I am offered by the world. I cherish her presences she is sacred to me she comes complete and compliment each other, I whisper in her ear my gratitudes, we can talk latter about that attitude lol I am playing… god reaffirmed his realness when you came along it felt like when he beat drops in studio and you feeling it and start to write the new song (life).

If I treat you the way, I do in private the way I do in public, am I going to slap that ass regularly in public of course not I am squeeze that ass lol (oh dear what have you started). Before you start tripping I wake up in the morning, thinking about loving the gift of you are to me that god’s given, it hard to ignore since we connected I am getting better, whatever the future hold I will be your lover from head to toe the perfect imperfection.

Don’t ever call me by bed name in public (mind your business lol). But I can call you muffin your finger licking good, edible, sugar high, cooked to perfect tender in places I like and your hand fits perfectly into mine, and I like to nibble ear lobes neck shoulder thighs and ummm lol (what till i get home haha)., and when i

do that thing that I do to muffin she aint saying nuffin. Divided and crazy is the world that we live in united we love we stand, I will never be ashamed to say your woman and I am your man.

 You got this king digging you, chilling at home dancing for dancing sake with not no reason, I should execute my heart, for you it committing treason, I promised myself not do this again but this loving thing is like quick sand and aint even fighting, I don’t even know what’s going on lady would you like to explain? oh you’re in the same boat I guess we just float along. The one thing that for sure your hearts found a home and you’re not alone anymore (some people in relationships but they still alone)

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