Twin roses you understand why i am slanted ...letters to future wife 24 ....

We are both roses that grew out the concrete we understand dust we understand the heat we know exactly where we were planted, we bare to each other naked scares under naked sky’s lit by the stars of or unique persona … truths that’s why we never take each other for granted.  I understand why you are and you understand why I am the way I am slanted. 

Often I knelt down so you could get my portion of sunlight and air when you didn’t feel strong and you didn’t feel like going on “listen to wind queen that’s our song” and you would lean to the side to give me your portion to wage life with the visititudes of life we both need to be strong. The struggle was real soul sister but got there right on (laughing thinking back)

Yeah them  days …Your bag on my shoulder  hand in hand a whole bunch of laughter I would home , we would reach the front door your parents aint home but you’re not going to let in me in  for real… (shock) aight at least let leave with this poem, before I rush we can have phone sex and you can use mind while coil the cord I am have talk dirty until I hear at least one moan… as tur to walk away you start to sing and back me up against a wall with the voice and pain Nina Simone   

When I first met you didn’t believe in love anymore because of those who came before me, when I looked in you the eye and said your my future wife you laughed and said I’ve heard that story before, “you just want the pussy” … “true …but didn’t take me lightly angel whisper in my ear she is the one that was prophecy”.  All you wanted was honest tender loving and the python that made bedroom scream, now you demand my complete tenderness,  own the python even named him icon  (who said that lol),  you look me in the eye ten years later in awe “ when we started you were not the man  of my dreams but you built them, I can’t see not being one team I say this from the heart cloud walker you’re an amazing human being”

"when your wife happy your homes happy" words from a father to a son.. letters to my future wife 23

Woman I want you to know when you walk through that door we are in our own world and its safe and sacred for us I can’t always protect you in the other world but I will do my best, but in this world you are beautiful as you are unless it’s a season because change is the only thing constant, you don’t have change a thing because that who I fell in love with in the first place, your hair doesn’t have to perfect  and go ahead put on some fat pants  wash off the make up just keep that sexy under wear on, because after dinner I am play our song , you know what is ... Whatever the song it translates to let’s get on lol and I peel them of with teeth like a thong (who said that) lol. In this home  you don’t have to be a super woman you don’t have to be Beyoncé Oprah Michelle and Serena all at once

 …when your strong be strong  when your weak be weak but don’t keep it secret like the world lies to you about and maybe even your moma told you  not to show me weak just speak , I rub your feet you do my shoulders that’s who we be image if I pushed away when I was hurting this is our world from day one  and we not anything outside that door are sweet… sweet sweetestestetest lol ( woman what you do to me lol). If you’re tired soak in bath with some wine take your time …I will and cook and do the dish laundry and some cling to, I am not insecure my hearts pure I will either gives you some space or tickle you and tell you jokes until your sides are in stitches,  watch a chick flick against my inner man’s wishes we can stay quiet and just hold you in my arms plus soft head kiss, your happiness is also mine and part of our homes richness… but I won’t know men are dumb ask speak. 

A wise man (laughing) my father told  me  “ when your woman/wife is happy your home is happy”, I didn’t know what it meant then but i did it properly,  by the way that you treat  101 it definitely kept me  because I am happy, a wise man indeed he bless us both with his wise prophecy… we are the designers... aliens ( not of this world that a good thing)  we dont focus on the major thats out of control be we perfect the minor .. i wake up in the morning like how i paint a smile on her face at abot 4 pm before works i am think how i am put it on you when give me taste ... when i see you

picture perfect ... Letters to my future wife 22

Musi untuya  ... The ancestors named our passion before time we are that...  your the smoke i am the thunder  we are a new house that will never be broken we speak with no words for if they could hear they pour toxins in what was spoken we look to future with deeply written hopes of the unspoken.

That young love  we had and still have  "that water doesn't taste like water because your near" love you wear where my shirt when i gone and pack you thong in bag , trust me i aint wearing that, i will call fall asleep i'll pay the bill i can't wait to hear you breathing ...  wait until i sing that song to you i aint leaving 

That dep sleep that allows hurting souls to sleep  to weep and to reep into me see, intimacy yeah i do those small things on purpose to drive crazy and get you mad the feed you intimacy, and then fall in love again hopelessly  yes crazy we must be 

The say a picture says a thousand  words ...The picture they see on the outside  is not close to the reality  of the silence we share ,close the care deeper than love hair raising like that percent note...  i was saying but what share has no perfect quote

Natural mystic ... letters to my future wife 21

You’re your own definition of Mr God’s beauty re enacted  in nature and given life by his breathe, form by mother nature and cooked to perfect by his Sun your creation was a family affair and your very self a aware of who and what you are and the confidence born of it so sexy... I see his penmanship written in your aura and i am lost but try and grasp the aristy of your face  a true natural mystic ....unborn i must ask did you appear to Marley in smoke  , hips lips and thoughts behind the mind so quick, funny enough i said African women don't walk they glide but your a true anomaly because you waddle lol... got me dirty demon type walking eye ball stalking  prayer and dirty thought talking , in the mirror all alone at home practicing future lip locking  lol your own definition of beauty  

From the very first time i saw them eyes i was doomed to fall to knees and call queen not that i am complaining i enjoy the scene ... i never mess with your freedoms  like my father said ...when a flower looks beautiful in the field  playing in the wind don’t pluck it out the ground you might possess it but its true beauty won’t last, so instead I stepped into world to make the beauty last  you missed so much you stepped into mine we got tired of the dance  and create our world in the ether the “us” the commitment the bond our marriage .When i did't make much money i gave you pay cheque when i got home ... we got a little something something nothing change you get to see my whole pocket because the foundation and the trust in the us is strong… no yours  no mine  ( accept your that thang lol thats mine )

 

Peaches (bedroom pet name  who said that lol) So at night What is that thing eat like a mango make your heart race but your mind slow “boy don’t even think of letting go”, they don’t get how our intellectual is actually sexual , that’s why our sexual phenomenal, and the climax is astronomical , a hose full of laughter because you’re so comical, I look into your eye and see happiness in the future  we talking on the that orkikal, I am write your name in the stars with poetry Orion, I look inside the mirror and can’t find myself because I am the gone  when I am in your arm, I am tur the lights off and you can turn me on…

When we talk with no words...letter to my future wife 20

You have the perfect body weight Ma… translated into my language your body on top of mine, yeah I promised to make you laugh and feel sexy with my foolish morning punch lines, to tell how I feel in my heart with my eye and mind with the jot of these lines, and you know how my body feels  about you that morning glory should we go for a third time (boy I got work to go to walking fun as is  lol). You love me because I am different, unique, funny kiriky 24 hours horny lol a Mr Gods designer original and i think you better or the same, that’s how you got the my last name I trying to discover what secret was Mr Gods thinksing as he poured into the master piece your becoming in finger licking beautiful frame. I am tell the truth when I say I am stand next through years, I tell you good lie if make you smile like you will only cry happy tears… (life happens and I am not perfect).

  Confession of Cloudwalker… I remember waking up early looking at you scared because I didn’t know what life would bring, I told Mr God “if you let me wake next to this woman for the rest of life I promise you I will face anything”… Listen Queen we paid  a great price for this love things that’s “us” that isn’t money, we have laughed at life because we done gone through something’s so hard even demons said dam that not funny, but if we both didn’t laugh we both would of gone crazy. Forget facebook and twitter I am OG I wana stand on top of mountain with and shout into the wind “you see her that’s my baby without her I go crazy” and play Tyrese my sweet lady.

so-amazing

We soul smart, I am going to make mistake but nothing serious enough to break your heart, mistakes and forgiveness that how you master the craft of love art … So i Think… we should not waste time i don’t know when he is coming I mean “death do us part” .  you grab my hands “ my man is building our dreams and our happy home with these two hands” and its moments and silences like this we speak in language on Angels …I love you when I met you By the way when we have an empty nest and its just the two of there, I am a still be the man who whisper  “are you wearing any under wear lol”  sorry slipped I mean “I still care"

Show me love ...letters to my future wife 19

  When I first told you I loved you enough to wife you … you laughed at me and said “okay show me … what happens to love over time, the reality of what I have felt and seen is that love starts out cute like a baby  the honey  moon  but few reach the agely..but real love Cloud walker is messy the older it get, I am to old give you my time and then regret…Real love is messy business and hard work cloud it’s not Roses and candle lights with our dinner nights, its hospital beds swale ankles and broken legs, taking care when you’re sick and not leaving when don’t know and we are scared, its repeating something to you that not true and you not get mad because friend got inside my head”…

I feel you  Ma so far we done the hard yards I can say I can still tell you I love you with my eyes  and smile but with closed lips …

Over the years the petals have being damaged and aged but a rose is still a rose and you are the rose that I choose… look at that woman I still side drool a little at extra jelly when you take off your clothes, we done come along way and killed the hidden unseen foes, we got past all the maybes yes and no’s lord knows you still make fun of my ears and well you know what I say about your nose, I still wrap around you sometimes and make it hard to do them chores …if the love doesn’t last then from day one it was always flawed  that why I am giving my all…

Mr Gods stay the fuel for the fire the bonds as us young puppies figure how love goes, more xxx and less o’s, so thank you Ma you trust me to breed trust me to lead you me to fight for “US” heart soul knuckle I might bleed… your trust and affection I am always need I pray never regret the day I got down with that stone on one knee

teaser ... letters ..18....your affect is better than a butter fly affect

They can say what ever they want "Northern star" i  am sit sit here and your brush hair  nothing unmanly about it ..what do they know about it... its our thing  you and me ...you speak your mind i listen .. then you make that sound that sound like purras like i gave you a souls pain cure its pure , you kiss me upside down i guess to you my lips are your crown  the here the now ... love is a verb not noun its force not a sound.

Woman may our day begin with me  rolling over in the morning and telling you thank you million men in the world and you picked me  it aint always got be that I picked you, sometimes the blade grass does pick the dew the dew picks the blade

When i talking in ice you know it get nice ...letters to my future 17

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(On the speaker driving on my way home “hello”)

Ma bring it back on me, because I am about to put it on you… i about to lose you ...to a body high, i am get you lit it... you be like "whatever" ...until i put in my mouth a cube of ice, yeah I bit it, close eyes the back neck i ignite it , who's minds running a riot, The bit of black mamba you aren’t going to fight it , ice in my mouth body poetry and this is how i write it, you can’t breathe you can’t move you can’t even take off the shoes I guess body is delighted everything a blurr at the same time close and far sighted waves of “argh shit get it” go head Ma just ride it  I am still on your  back I even got to  Chiraq...body poetry ice in my mouth should i take that route, should I get fried chicken water like grease on my lips glisten should i go down south we grown folk you know what I am talking about. 

You know I got that look in my eye, tomorrow you will be walking funny like last you came back but maybe you died, we nibble ear lobs like gods eating a honey combs what’s my tongue doing to the back of your spine back of your thigh that got you rolling your eyes looking all surprised… bring it back Ma I losing you .. Adele said hello but I am saying good bye… I told you I would ignite it you are on this the body high… you know whats up …when I say get them thighs up I am O.G  I am a not peter pan I take my time I am real man I de construct your as I working up plan is your head starting to spin like the sound of the fan, you know I eat sloppily because I eat it properly we don’t waste not food around here especially when it sweet honey b, dam nearly broke my neck you need to stop trying to decapitate me, know I got to break back but you know you like that deep lake with pipe I was whispering to your body know I got live up to hype, it’s like any given Sunday we going do this all night I need to take you place where darkness makes you see the light …. Aight ..

Letters to my future wife …16 The soul kiss focus

 

Did you feel it… that ones the one I call my soul kiss … I am here to help you achieve your dream don’t forget we are a team your happiness means the world to me I hope not be the distraction but action and the laser like focus… rest in me  when I put that ring on your finger that was my promise to be your fortress …it real out here Ma…. no magic’s tricks I don’t do that hocus pocuss , life is our book this is our chapter together let’s make it good read for Mr God so help me write this…

(With sadness in my eyes)… Sadly we live  in a world where men tend to die before women… so unless Mr god himself do the calling I aint leaving The “I love you’s” and cuddles random kiss I will be giving, the word divorce  abuse  and ugly words are not allowed in our speaking, I am committed to the “us” northern star

 “Confessions of the Cloud walker if I died to night I would find a way from the other side to let you  feel my love while you’re still sleeping …Don’t mind the blood on my  hands  and callus its the price I am willing to breathe to build you Eden”. In a confused world where genders roles seems crossed you let me be a man you trust me to be the head of our house my decisions and in my leading thank you for believing complete not compete all day tag teaming

In this life time they will never understand us we say we love  it’s as invisible as light , as real as the earth valued at diamond worth tested by hard yards and hard times not just the romance  and the fully feelings, from day one we bandages nurse and doctors for soul bruising and heart bleeding

Letters to my future wife 15... cant help but stare

Letters to my future wife …

Did you know you’re my kind of beautiful that’s why I dropped a knee woman … you yes you … my next to wake bad breath droopy eyes and imperfect hair… looking cute as hell we are the perfect pair…

I love the way your super comfortable in your skin and mind state that kind woman who eats whatever she wants (confidence so sexy), life to sweet cheese cake chocolate life to short “there children starving out there no food to waste” we can work it off in the  bedroom… so I eat without care .

Your charismatic flare in moments of madness…compassion in the soul love beams through your eyes, if she knew how I love the extra how she carries the extra in her thighs  dirty  naughty  jokes slip off her tongue … she is such a breath of fresh air…

Sophisticated smarts and sexy… she doesn’t take herself to seriously she got me wetting the my lips and maybe hers (who said that) maybe in my arms you don’t have fear but some of thoughts you speak put shock in my ear… and when someone is stupid enough to give you lip and attitude, I got your back but turn my back and think “oh dear”…

Royalty ... a king and  queen so we know the seed we will bear, if you were poem written Tupac’s  “Rose that grew out the concrete”, merged with  “can you see the pride in the panther” a splash  of Maya “Phenomenal woman” and a pinch of Nikki Giovanni... “I have you” I think that the perfect pair …

Forgive me I am not trying to be stalker just me a Cloud walker, I wake up a few minutes before you do and you are my kind of beautiful, if you could see you  as I see you would understand why is stare…

A taste of that- ….Letter to my future wife 14

Letter To my future wife

I promise to never take you for granted the rose was plated in love it grew a little slanted … Mr God heard me and answered when we met and the pray was answered we met and the hearts got transplanted, some tme we so in love people around us can’t event stand us we on some agape love but from day one its being our standard

When they ask me how are you so brilliant at life I point at you like … “Your my open secret I showed her my crazy … her crazy showed my crazy crazy I could not meet it … but thats why I love you woman best believe it that’s why eat it beat, and that why I will stand up to legion to defeat it …

Why I call you names…. ? … Letters to my future 12

Woman do you know why I call you rose … I see you when you look in the mirror and you question all that amazing Mr God gave you naturally that nobody else will ever have wonderfully beautiful powerfully and uniquely made the world get to share you but he made you for me, I don’t care about the world outside world do you know what you look like to me? A rose…

 Why Queen it’s not just a term of endearment it’s a term of authority and respect “earned” and not just given you aint perfect but at least I respect your heart character and the way that you living, every time I call you by that name I hope to put you back to place you stripped for born from and belong royalty, to remind you  of Mr Gods originals design for you he mad you half human half deity, completely complete for me  the cradle of humanity  and lord sometimes he is the test of my sanity lol… it would not have it any other  way…  

she is a psalm for my soul and i am  balm for her soul and we so the bomb  when we complete and we whole.I call us the coal , they can tease us  but I would rather be darkness with light in the soul, I am not scared no more we can face  the I am not sure and I don’t know and i will stay .. trust me i will stay ...  you never have  to pay a price for being your self around me on contrary you end up loosing me  and end up loosing you  when try fake the we , northern star know who you are  why northern star ?  unmoved and eternity by gods hand we are designed by Mr Gods hand we stand  i will always be your man ...

i loved you before i fell in love with you...to my future wife 11

How do I explain the secret to us to this fraudulent world, the simple truth is that we loved each other before we fell in love with each other. Yeah  we lay in the bed in the I draw lines on skin spelling words you laugh  as you guess what I am trying say … this is sacred to us it’s our thing the touch that doesn't lead to sex, we are connected in ways that most people will never feel and understand… sometimes we want to take a walk  and be in complete silence and hold hands our sacred touch that doesn't lead to sex … this generation that is connected in flesh but no in the soul is perplexed see as strange and complex.

We play banter about who fell hardest and who fell first … then we confess about the deep thirst, then we argue playfully about who has the thirst worse, it in those moments of laughter ( she hits me with pillow)… [ in that moment time stand still for me for a moment  and  I hear myself tell myself that’s why we  love her](I am back)… the confessions of Cloud Walker “I love this woman more than I love my self”…

Yeah you crazy enough to love me … when I walk through that door before I can say nuffin you put your hands on my mouth… and whisper in my ear “Cloud I am not wearing and panties … are you going going to eat the eye candy … you know what to do daddy”… some of you are thinking this holly wood but nah this is my reality Dele huro (Espagnol  hit it hard ) “ Ma you lucky your man’s good with  wood, what’s wrong with you bring out the thug in me that hood" .

How do I explain to world  we have 360 degree type love mind body soul … I hit it from the back till  u smile so I am lay back and let you take control…

To see my self through your eyes... Letter to my future wife 10

Woman I hear the way you talk to me about me … and I heard the whispers by your friends about me type conversation through you… and I have only one thing to say … you make me want to see me through your eyes because I curious , I am truly intrigued about this person that you see . When your lips part and you call me King what does that real mean?… because when I call you Queen I know what I mean it’s more than what my eyes call your body type scene, not the sculpture of curves (looking so soft) but essence of your woman hood and a light that’s rarely ever seen, when you say we live in world full of contradiction and I am the force that stops so much of the affliction by being a contradiction and keeps your heart ticking?  when I first met you could not get enough of telling me how “you were  fine on your own” now you make me late for work when I got to leave when you pull me back talking about “ I don’t  want to be alone”… What did you see in that god that made you confess “ you don’t wana do the rest of your  life on your own but you want to get away from the crowd and have me  all to your own”. 

What is it you see that makes you stand naked by door when I come home covered in my shirt…? I aint complaining trust me Ma it really appreciated I am always ready because it works… what are you thinking when you use that finger to tell come here, then you whisper …. (x rated lol) in my ear.. what do you mean when you say I sound desert rain and you are staved of soul water, that smile on your face when say … “your that I am perfect thought you never would thought of” … Are you telling me the truth and what is it about DNA do you see through my skin and veins to the blood when you say “ I want to give you a son and daughter”… I get confused when say “your still learning how to love me like you outta” … I think there  more …lol … if I made you feel any other way than you’re doing amazing … what is that you’re thinking  when my backs turned but I feel your eye glazing… ( sound of the pen down) So yeah we can be alone together for ever…

Letter to my future wife 9 … both of us with no make up...be vulnerable

Do you know why I like to stare at you and marvel when you don’t have makeup on, yeah you’re beautiful and fly all kinds of awesomeness happening there to (rolling my eyes and laughing) but it’s not that ?  The makeup covers the person I wake to up to it’s hard to see Mr Gods original design there Ma, I want to know that you its sacred to me just like you don’t want me to wear the man makeup  of false masculinity that would cover up the flaws in my character , the sometimes I am weak and the  bruises in my soul from everyday life , they don’t make me less man to you… so why cover up what makes you more woman and human to me ?… it’s too hard to live up to these false concepts of perfection  that’s for them out there not the “US” , (sarcastically) besides I married a real woman with curves  and morning breathe  not a mannequin (Hitting me).

 That face under the makeup is the one I will see when you have a baby… (Laughing) or worse that would be terrible time to meet a stranger lol… like how you want to see my souls face when I lose some one that I love and I am supposed to lean on you. I gave you my word you would never be alone in a crowd and you said “Cloud don’t ever be emotionally unavailable when I am around”… we got this we don’t always know how or get it right but we got it… When your covered up it tells you don’t trust me with imperfect to love you anyway and then you get confused when my soul doesn’t show up … keep it  simple wipe the makeup off and you can put me on… know come here and tuck yourself into my right arm…

Foot note * this ones a bit special to me because a friends emailed me the title and asked me to work it, for his wife ...

African sista

African sister

She sustains life like the river Nile
The universe gotta pause when she give a smile
Plus she got the strength of the black race
I find myself staring at the length of her black and beautiful face

She got darkened knees from polishing floors
But it aint hard to see she a positive force
Bucket of water on her head but still carry a child
She diverse keeping her hair in various styles

Deep like the Kimberly mines
So you couldn uncover her treasures even if you were given the time
Plus she humble like the sun in a solar eclipse
Her voice blesses the air like when you blowing a kiss
See the motion of the ocean in the sway of her hips
A lotta girls but she the most potent on the list

Mascara doesn’t define her
She divine in her design so on the throne is where you find her
She got so many gifts that her bridal price
Would be a star and the moon if you valued her right
Source of inspiration, 9 months carryin a nation
She my black sista, original queen, not an imitation

Gerald Synik...