Love at last bite (not first sight … these things have levels) letter to my future wife 40

Love at last bite (not first sight … these things have levels) letter to my future wife 40

Ayo Ma … I will  always have a home for your body and your heart, this is 2017 where people worry more about image than realness… people have a home for a body but not the heart  the soul the broken and that condition right there creates soul separation, I wake up every morning… looking  at you thanking Mr Gods for you my  female soul reflection reflection never lonely phoney love friend home i never be afraid to ask “can you just hold me , connection “beautiful”. While starring at you in the morn I am reminded of kindness, service, self-sacrifice , when I think about it ummm everything nice… and the importance of forgiveness (Kings and Queens lord knows in small ways we mess up) [leaning back]…can I get witness (preach it Cloud preach it)… Why I call you northern star you keep me focused balanced and should I fall off a little your my centeredness, if lost all of this  I know you would stay with the king even if I was penniless, I know this because we have already being through the trenches with much less you stayed I must confess,  young wild and crazy in the world of hip hop you stayed with me  even when I was reckless… as we get older I get to bear witness to “fine wine” beauty as I think to self… dam I love that ass , we still make love like teenagers Confessions of Cloudwalker … anytime soon I won’t be entering her body any less… break her back with kiss I need her feel the soul kiss

I must confess your milk shakes brought the King to the yard, I remember the first time you let  me get a taste and hit, Cookie finger licking  I almost lost mind the bedroom became the love asylum… first time we made soft sweet tender  Brain Mc Knight in the background, second time we flipped the script from outside looking in that almost looked violent I ain’t talking about me breaking your back about talking about your rhythm  and ridding (who said that lol).

Realness I love the way we don’t need music or crowd for us to start to connect and we dance, From morn when we wake true blessings in that we both trying to figure out how to make the other smile from a true place of unselfishness maybe that’s how we preserved the realness and romance, eyes still connect and we still go into trance that ain’t by chance … Northern star that’s why your my greatest critic, I know you will never plan demise on the other hand you want me on point so that our pockets up seize, we being together for a minute accept for your weight and your age I ain’t heard you tell lies (ducking)… custom fitted by Mr Gods your,  heart , your body,  you’re crazy your hands just the right seize … can I testify I call her citizen of heaven not because she perfect ( well in my eye yeah)  nah just since day one ride or die “Fly”.

“you can have the last piece Dede” “no Ma you can have the last piece”… that moment .

[flash back in time ] “Mama how do you know if he or she is the one”

“Baby it’s simple … they give you their last people food when your sharing it simply means baby they put you  before themselves”… we found love at the last bite we feel in love at first sight ….

Crazy enough to love Me. ..Darkness to light

Flash…   darkness to light

In the darkness [inner voice] Something’s wrong, very wrong … (I beat my chest seven times to summon the ancestors and kneel … palm on the ground the energy surges) “Dziva !” … Silence, a door opens up and light peers in the room… I get off my knee and face the light …

“You … I thought I told you I don’t ever want to see you again until it was time to go home, is it time?”

“No”

“Then what’s the problem are you slow dumb def or retarded Michael? (My eyes turn grey the energy starts to surge) do we have a problem captain of the host we can dance again? ”

“The bald head found you they are aware of whom and what you are, they sent Legion to kill you … Legion hit you in the head with a semi-truck, you’re stuck in comma that’s why you’re in the Ether … stuck in the dream world , kind of ?”

“Why go after a general, it would not make sense especially a retired general?”

“You’re not a general… you are a True king (silence to digest what was just said) very few know the real blood lines and true identity of the True Kings it was the only way to truly protect them… to hide you in plain sight while you mastered the arts of war and hope you didn’t get killed in the process … it is time for you lead you already know how”

“My family if they came after me surely they ...?” “Safe protected by a host cherubim flaming swords  24/7 and your troops are with them but they will need there general”

“Any other dirty laundry you want to air and share with me and what does he want from me ?”  Gabriel from behind “For you to grab your destiny and stop fighting who and what you are for his will to be done and not your own simple… for your obedience.”

[inner voice ]…Letter to my inner king

Crazy enough to love me … NEW intro Strange fruit pt1 Truth

Crazy enough to love me … Strange fruit pt1

Truth 

They say there is nothing worse than living in a time when you need a hero and there are none , yes… no there is , living in a time where there is a hero and you need him but he won’t heed the call… because of you “Why would I fight for them , they want to be treated with dignity respect equality and some sense of love and have equal opportunity and yet they would take mine to somehow a sense yours . I fight for humanity not savages so when you change and I mean really, not what you say but what you do …I might change my mind.

Return to Mecca –lyrics Cloud aka Child ether 

“They say that racism is dead but I think it never left us

Like sex unprotected a lot of these bitch ass’s be infected”

Born free ? Free from what ? We all dream of a brighter future at least where I come from we do … for ourselves our children our spouse and for the last days of parents to be able to provide freely and adequately to return , to complete the cycle of love they gave or should of , the love they gave when I arrived from the dream world is the same love I want to give back as they return to the forever source in the dream world or as we Sevens call it the “Ether” from which I came , most normal people  want better and brighter for their kin and for our nations , the ones we are born from and the ones we adopt and yes they all have their challenges but we want better . Free is one of those funny words that isn’t funny as I get older and wiser I realize “free” like “love” is something you spend a life time savagely fighting for it … to gain it , to defend it , to have some form of understanding of it , to evolve in it and to pass them down generation ally and make inheritance of it … savage War with an enemy no rules “just us” no justice . Spiritual warfare and we are on the front line and the funny parts nobody knows .

Crazy enough to love me - pre read (wink enjoy)

Pre-read Crazy enough to love me…. The strange fruit series 1


I have never met a human being who does not have a dysfunctionality on one level or another and if they say they don’t or act perfect Run! Those are most likely to be some really deep demons down there hiding somewhere and when they come out play maybe just maybe you don’t want to be around (laughing).  Love, real love in my world is hard work and costs you something that isn’t money that’s why in 2017 … most people don’t do “real love…” fraudulent, yes real no… get a pet much simpler.
Cloud was born a “Seven” humans with Angel DNA a special blood chosen at ancient of days to lead us (humanity) or at least his clan the wolf pack in spiritual warfare against the “bold head” and legion . We step into his world , contemptuous of humanity  and very weary of fighting for it for his own varied reasons a deep inner conflict a rises … the same humanity that will become apocalyptic until the last days also holds his loved one’s  and they will get swept into that storm if he doesn’t fight , we step into his world a mind court in conflicting sways of decision making and timely task completion to protect those that he loves including killing himself, self-perseveration vs Self sacrifice … at the start .“Strange fruit is what brought me here, it’s what I am, I just want to leave some normal fruit in this world to leave some love to leave my mark?” and that Cloud takes us back to the start of his life in post-colonial Zimbabwe a time of so called integration, a time when inter racial relationships that we take for granted today were a taboo approached with caution and distrust not so much because of racism it was just a time when old wounds needed healing, it was also a time when children were seen and not heard . A time before Facebook and twitter where people just did not say whatever they wanted without thinking of the ramifications of their words “what happened in the house stayed in the house” and that was law.

 Seen and not to be heard born in a time when children did not speak back to their parents or else they would face the wrath of a leather strap or worse , we are taken into a world of two young lovers and the “wolf pack” where their innocence struggles to breathe and is seemingly being stripped away from them painfully and slowly , but like most human beings they adapt to preserve their sanity and sense of love it doesn’t have to make sense to world if it works dysfunctionality . He is African and he has just lost his father a young boy and struggles on the path to masculinity as well as the natural challenges of going through puberty and the complexities that arise from his home environment as his mother attempts to find the right way to raise them alone  as well as the complex process of  integration going  at school . Detta is white and she has also lost her mother to breast cancer , her guide to her femininity she faces the same challenges as he does accept that after her mother’s death her father has become emotionally vacant and withdrawn so in their own strange ways they are both father less, they are drawn to each other’s brokenness seemingly unaware of each other’s race , but very aware of I am a boy and you’re a girl and this strange feeling they have for each other which has all the characteristics of love but is it ? At only 12 years old they trying to deal with not only their past’s but unsure futures, puberty, and the present, but the issue of identity created by the new independent Zimbabwe and people constantly imposing their values and opinions on them that contradict the feelings they have for each other, and so they struggle with their parents “do as I say not as I do” attitudes and we all know children learn from what they see not what you say . They hold onto each for dear life as they wade through the fog of change as they try to figure out what traditions to hold onto and leave , what new things to embrace and leave while dealing with the fear of the walk into the unknown with the knowledge that time never moves backward for anybody,  life is a unpredictable and everything happens in the blink of an eye. They face 3 realities how they see the world, how people in world see things and what’s really going on minus the bull shit in between. Along the journey, they are joined by the “Wolf pack” a brotherhood of friends who confide in each to retain their sanity from their home lives, a family away from a family built on unorthodox love.
To entertain educated  make you laugh  and have fun along the way while brushing on issues humanity  has trouble telling the truth  about . Funny a times  and painfully honest  looking at issues people would rather sweep under the rug out of shame escapism or the simple fact that to confront the issue would force them (the adults ) to take a very good look in the mirror and either live in that prison forever or change.  The Strange fruit is simply the bi products of the situations they are forced to adapt to and evolve around and how it affects their adult lives in the latter years. They are the strange fruit and if you look in the mirror maybe just maybe, you are to? Walk with us find out

jump ... i catch u ... you be like

You be like ... Jump....i will catch you

She told me (staring me in eye with her sexy self whats wrong woman ...cute) I think I am falling I don’t like it... not being in control , I told her from where I standing you on the edge of a cliff jump i will catch you worst case Mr Gods a parachute  but i hope you land in these arms , that’s why I am dropping these barz these bombs these psalms ,  way too much passion for any calm before our storm skin feels so soft so warm soul and heart torn to each other we are menders, no pretenders the kind of love that drives you crazy a soul ascender , think about you half day know your minder bender, homelsss in a box or in fancy car my heart your confessions cloud walker she i northern star.... i see you for who you are... and thats the person i feel in love with they get processed i prefer the raw

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You be like ... can i take your breath away

You be like ... can i take your breath away

Ayo ma  I am going to be the worst thief in the world and tell you  how I am going to steal your kisses and heart and take your breathe away , I am going to be the best magician but with your permission I am a take you away but by stand right here I am take u to our world while we are in this dimension , laughter honesty and happiness are the keys did i mention  the people around us have limited view on what love can be but your my soul extension... “could you be could be love you be love “ your bob Marley love redemption song,  I love the way your soul spirit and head are strong mama said if pick right you can’t go wrong ... Our bedroom is a shrine  more than foreplay we have word play  and the touch that doesn’t lead to sex play deep conversation soul connect that’s the best play we even have chess play  double meaning , me and you we against life tag teaming... we being together a minute never being a boring day you still have my eyes being like you.. she is me  that’s my representative as I am hers

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i am the Dj your the song Letters to my future wife 39

Tonight i am the dj your my crowd  and i am about to play that the thong (clearing throat) i mean song ...(lol you know whats on my mind) all night long, today I am be the professor  and give you that ass i mean class and do revisions until you pass with an  Aghhh  i mean A you get my secret stash ....I love it when I hear you laugh  you’re the answers to some of my happiness math, we live in our own world  we protect it at all costs i am the master (designer)  true but your the boss thats why we floss, we taken bullets from people mouths and the  world but we never taken a loss. Wake me up see me like I see you with  no eye’s  no lies that why we are soul ties.... take me as I am accept me for that part of me that is a man I know there's no need to try silent conversation when smile and look each other in the eye. Beauty and a beast both creations of Mr God as different as west from east, I remember the first time you looked at me like you had never looked at me before, young we were new and alarming  I am supposed to be the prince but you seduced me miss princess charming . 

Mr Gods dear lord ...when i sing her song  the notes i hit aight even on the key board or scales , like when eagles saw majestic what have is only controlled by unwritten and spiritual law , i try not smile but fail when she walk through the door in my mind i am on me moore . What we got Queen  you can't buy or sell this , i think its cute  and lets me know you still want me all to your self when you act jealous, we just do us in public what they think we could not careless, we got this far through all kinds of war because pray together and have never taken each other for granted we haven't prayed less, Confessions of cloud walker its only getting better each year old school i must confess this, i love the way your first name sounds so good next to my last name, picture perfect  and we lucky we looking in the mirror and we are in the frame...